Winning the hearts and minds

[misterx]

What an asshole. Crap. I'm not even going to post the link I'm so disgusted. Search for "Iraqi Kid Runs For Water" on YouTube if you want to watch it.

I'm in perfect form to be disgusted though. Last time I called my antidepressant in for a refill, the doctor's office informed me I would have to come in for a visit before they would renew it again. Yeah, ok, ding ding ding $$$$$$ whatever. So I've been trying to time everything to avoid any gaps between the end of the medication and the start of the insurance, so as to save myself, hmm, about three hundred bucks, for one thing. Unfortunately my best efforts still resulted in running out several days before I could get in to the doc. So currently the whole world has a lovely "fingernails on a chalkboard" countenance.

Not entirely a loss to have to go in though, as I think I have developed a tolerance. I've been crashed pretty hard the last several weeks. Rather a mess to tell the truth. Eh, it's not pretty, and frankly while I hope this will be a catalyst for improvement I really loathe changing medications and experimenting on my brain.

Back to your regularly scheduled photos and stuff.

Comments

[datagoddess.livejournal.com]

Dude, sucks.

Hang in there. Withdrawal sucks boulders through cocktail straws.

[dampscribbler.livejournal.com]

Ugh. I'm so sorry to hear about the doctor's office, about the tolerance developed, about running out of meds, about probably getting new meds. It may be weird to say, but I'm not surprised. I've noticed your lack of posts lately, and been wondering how things have been going. Now I know. I hope it's all better soon.

[xbrokenx.livejournal.com]

i just fucking saw that.

makes me want to hurt people.
ugh.

[shirokarasu.livejournal.com]

This might be a good time to start reading The Art of Motorcycle maintainence again. Mebbe it will keep you mind in a place that will allow you to make it with out killing people. Or.... You could become Ninja :> (if you do that... I have a list)

[cuntishness.livejournal.com]

damnit. i hate when that happens. i'm sorry.

[omnamahshivaya.livejournal.com]

Good to know others on my friends list are also depressed and need meds..... sorry to hear about the insurance not caring about your health!

any ways, I am on Lexapro 20mg., and there are very few side affects! When I tried Effexor, it was so bad my doc took me off it in four days. I have never tried to go off a med for my brain yet, so , I have no idea what withdrawal is like yet. My therapist talked to me last Thursday, and I was sooo zoned by him , that the whole ride home was dissociated and my head felt floaty! not sure what he said to make me react like this. I know he is helping me get in touch with the trauma now, and I can feel it too!

I was scared, still am scared. of chemically altering my brain, but then I think about how many times my last ex-husband punched and pounded my brain and I know it needs help! I probably do have brain damage. My eyesight in my left eye has a permanent black line in my field of vision from it. Too bad they can't fix that!

I am hoping you are OK! Holidays get people feeling weird. Zi hope this one is a good one for you! I am a mess too. You have great company here on LJ! You can talk to me any time. I relate! I get it!

[brujaoscura.livejournal.com]

Hugs- I know what you're dealing with- been there done that. Would send you some of mine but doubt you take what I've been taking.
By the way- Happy Turkey Day- don't get too stressed!